old leaves

two thousand and nine
two thousand and eight
two thousand and seven
two thousand and six
two thousand and five
two thousand and four

Thursday, Dec. 30, 2004: start of amnesia

Monday, Dec. 20, 2004: calculations

Sunday, Dec. 12, 2004: evening (unattended)

Friday, Dec. 10, 2004: a band-aid for your soul

Wednesday, Dec. 01, 2004: drunk on your honey tipped lips

Monday, Nov. 29, 2004: ryan adams, yoghurt and solitude, and oh, solitude

Saturday, Nov. 27, 2004: clouds

Sunday, Nov. 21, 2004: where i end and ..

Friday, Nov. 19, 2004: cicada disco

Monday, Nov. 15, 2004: suddenly is sooner than you think

Sunday, Nov. 14, 2004: elk-lake serenades

Friday, Nov. 12, 2004: more politics from me

Thursday, Nov. 11, 2004: we spieees, we slowww haands

Wednesday, Nov. 10, 2004: absences

Monday, Nov. 08, 2004: how we the magic

Friday, Nov. 05, 2004: sweet like a crow (an excerpt)

Thursday, Nov. 04, 2004: soundtrack: radiohead - let down

Tuesday, Nov. 02, 2004: (ex) lover's spit

Tuesday, Nov. 02, 2004: on lonely boys

Saturday, Oct. 30, 2004: electioneering

Saturday, Oct. 30, 2004: to you, the boy

Friday, Oct. 29, 2004: i find it odd how you always notice

Thursday, Oct. 28, 2004: "i don't mind if you forget me"

Monday, Oct. 25, 2004: me hurt or, backyards

Saturday, Oct. 23, 2004: somewhere i'm not (scatterbrain'd)

Wednesday, Oct. 20, 2004: regret #42,549

Saturday, Oct. 16, 2004: the shoegazers' club

Tuesday, Oct. 12, 2004: and it was ok for a while until it started all over again

Tuesday, Oct. 05, 2004: drinking lemon water i made for myself

Sunday, Oct. 03, 2004: waiting

Thursday, Sept. 30, 2004: only here for a while or, in a caffeine-free world

Thursday, Sept. 23, 2004: the shape of this bed

Wednesday, Sept. 22, 2004: what a beautiful morning, after this i'm outta here

Monday, Sept. 13, 2004: the wanting and the waiting or, spaces

Sunday, Sept. 12, 2004: missing

Saturday, Sept. 11, 2004: in the event that you left me sitting in the smoking lounge of an airport..

Tuesday, Sept. 07, 2004: fuck melancholia

Monday, Sept. 06, 2004: 22

Saturday, Sept. 04, 2004: gaps between stars

Friday, Aug. 27, 2004: put my shoe in yourself

Thursday, Aug. 26, 2004: the death of the author

Wednesday, Aug. 25, 2004: seconds turning into minutes

Monday, Aug. 23, 2004: line of best fit

Saturday, Aug. 21, 2004: surfing on a sun beam

Tuesday, Aug. 17, 2004: with hair in the mouth

Sunday, Aug. 15, 2004: love and death are always on my mind

Saturday, Aug. 14, 2004: i got a party invitation today but i don't think i'm going

Monday, Aug. 09, 2004: story of the flying nose

Saturday, Aug. 07, 2004: i just hate these fluorescent lights

Monday, Aug. 02, 2004: the boosh quotes

Wednesday, Jul. 28, 2004: the longest winter

Tuesday, Jul. 27, 2004: it's too dim here

Sunday, Jul. 25, 2004: the part where she gets up in the middle of the night to get a glass of water

Saturday, Jul. 24, 2004: you're not impressed by me

Friday, Jul. 23, 2004: filled with love for mogwai, boards of canada

Thursday, Jul. 22, 2004: in the mood for music

Saturday, Jul. 17, 2004: an open letter

Thursday, Jul. 15, 2004: there's got to be a simpler explanation

Monday, Jul. 12, 2004: why some nights are worse than the others

Friday, Jul. 09, 2004: the temperature's been dropping 1 degree per second ever since

Thursday, Jul. 08, 2004: wind like a punch in the gut

Wednesday, Jul. 07, 2004: in which our hero battles with fierce boredom and mediocrity

Tuesday, Jul. 06, 2004: Something Always Goes Wrong

Saturday, Jul. 03, 2004: plots without a twist

Friday, Jul. 02, 2004: new construction site

Saturday, Jun. 26, 2004: the interstates must be colder, i'm sure

Friday, Jun. 25, 2004: depression

Monday, Jun. 21, 2004: 20th century's greatest propaganda

Thursday, Jun. 17, 2004: synapse to synapse:

Sunday, Jun. 13, 2004: i miss my friends

Thursday, Jun. 10, 2004: miss me sometime

Tuesday, Jun. 08, 2004: moody blue

Monday, Jun. 07, 2004: life is full of possibilities

Sunday, Jun. 06, 2004: changes=no good

Saturday, Jun. 05, 2004: that which made us both laugh

Thursday, Jun. 03, 2004: how to keep reality away and your body warm

Tuesday, Jun. 01, 2004: by candlelight

Thursday, May. 27, 2004: caught between the tree branches

Wednesday, May. 26, 2004: dressed up like the moon

Tuesday, May. 18, 2004: breaking hearts in winter is easy

Friday, May. 14, 2004: everything is portable nowadays

Thursday, May. 13, 2004: i can hear the birds sing

Monday, May. 10, 2004: random politics at night

Monday, May. 10, 2004: on insistence of things i should've done

Sunday, May. 09, 2004: forget your life for a second

Tuesday, May. 04, 2004: blow a little breeze

Wednesday, Apr. 28, 2004: a lack of color here

Friday, Apr. 23, 2004: slippery fingers

Thursday, Apr. 22, 2004: to the extent that it's absurd

Wednesday, Apr. 21, 2004: i've held too few

Tuesday, Apr. 20, 2004: i feel sick

Wednesday, Apr. 14, 2004: it's too far now/the atlantic

Wednesday, Apr. 14, 2004: soft ..

Monday, Apr. 12, 2004: complications of being alone

Sunday, Apr. 11, 2004: my ears are full of sad songs today

Friday, Apr. 09, 2004: wandering all day long/getting lost

Friday, Apr. 09, 2004: on war (but i'm ignorant)

Wednesday, Apr. 07, 2004: not punchdrunk/not lovesick

Tuesday, Apr. 06, 2004: blue morning, blue morning

Sunday, Apr. 04, 2004: you might not know how it gets

Saturday, Apr. 03, 2004: on being 21 and a half

Saturday, Apr. 03, 2004: i'm somewhere in between

Monday, Mar. 29, 2004: maybes

Saturday, Mar. 27, 2004: early birds are the lucky ones (?)

Wednesday, Mar. 24, 2004: a confession dedicated to this moment of sadness

Tuesday, Mar. 23, 2004: another morning

Sunday, Mar. 21, 2004: feeling selfish and foolish

Saturday, Mar. 20, 2004: leaving on a jetplane

Saturday, Mar. 20, 2004: i'm sorry

Friday, Mar. 19, 2004: hello

Friday, Mar. 19, 2004: kind of quiet

Tuesday, Mar. 16, 2004: morning sickness

Sunday, Mar. 14, 2004: restless

Monday, Mar. 08, 2004: your voice

Sunday, Mar. 07, 2004: this infernal rain

Sunday, Feb. 29, 2004: locking my diary is stupid and pretentious anyway

Thursday, Feb. 26, 2004: Sigh

Saturday, Feb. 21, 2004: beautiful

Saturday, Feb. 21, 2004: tragic eve

Thursday, Feb. 19, 2004: unintended

Monday, Feb. 16, 2004: rain updates the heart

Thursday, Feb. 12, 2004: helpless

Wednesday, Feb. 04, 2004: night ride

Monday, Jan. 26, 2004: laughing matter

Monday, Jan. 26, 2004: grey outside

Thursday, Jan. 22, 2004: when it comes to being insane

Thursday, Jan. 01, 2004: a groggy new year's day

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