keep your / hand on the rail / if / all / else fails

<< Saturday, Oct. 06, 2007 - 1:02 am >>
so so so so

i can't relax. i have green nails in my stomach scratching screeeching spinning 12 rpm.

it's always like this. i get high then i go down. sometimes it's not even about money. other times it's about my fucking lack of confidence. today is all about my fucking depression and my lack of control over my adolescent heart.

it doesn't help that i've been seeing my dear friend nearly everyday lately, the one with the saddest eyes.

god i hate this. i miss my friends. i miss hugs. i want to get out of here. i want to be at peace with myself. awkwardly i shall climb into bed and sleep should work its magic ...