keep your / hand on the rail / if / all / else fails

<< Monday, Apr. 11, 2005 - 3:39 pm >>
this stomach wasn't made for honesty

sometimes i think i am too honest for my own good. i'm so bad at lying. and when i do lie, i get embarrassed. a couple of months ago, i was invited to a minister's house for dinner. he was very kind to me and when we finished eating, he prayed for each one of us. he said something about my honesty that made me feel so self conscious and embarrassed. i wonder if they remember my name still. i haven't seen them since.

i envy those who lie so well. it is a skill i must acquire before i die. i think it would be a valuable posession.